Introducing Kwesi!!

I'd like to introduce our little handsome man, Kwesi.  He was born on July 11, 2012 weighing 7lb 6 oz and was 20 inches long.  This is him in his car seat for the first time leaving the hospital!

I have to say... usually I'm pretty good at describing my feelings or putting my thoughts into a blog.  When I think about writing how I feel about Kwesi I don't know where to start.  I know that many of you who are parents already know exactly what I'm talking about - although I have to say that I believe that for Edward and I it's a bit different.  It's been a little over 3 years since Edward and I first thought we were going to have a baby.  And after our first miscarriage I was sure that I'd never have a child of my own - at least that I would have one naturally.  When I was young I remember saying that I thought I'd never be able to have kids and so when I had my first miscarriage it just confirmed that thought.  I've never felt so much anger, pain and hurt in my life.  And then after the 2nd and 3rd miscarriage - well, no one could convince me that we'd ever be parents to a child that we created.  Of course when we stopped trying, God gave us Kwesi.  And I'll be honest.  When I look at him I wouldn't say that I feel happiness... I feel like the word happy is kind of superficial or not serious enough to describe the extreme joy and thankfulness and pure gratitude I have when looking at my son.  Those of you who know me know that I don't have much of a mom personality... I guess is the best way I can put it.  Well, this little man has stolen my heart.  And much to my surprise (and my husband's) I feel that everything that's come along with him feels very natural.  He just feels right.  And being his mom feels right.  Edward and I never felt like anything was missing from our relationship or marriage but I can say that now we definitely feel like he's the most perfect addition and we thank God that he's given us this miraculous gift.